I have to write Today!!!!

04Feb11

It was in the year 2008 that I attempted to write, this could not have happened if it were not for this very close friend of mine. She even opened my blog account & managed it for a while. All I did was write in and email the doc to her & then forget about it. Writing is not a natural trait to me unlike so many others in the blogging arena. But today after nearly 2 years I decided that I should attempt to write something.

Since I am not a natural writer, for me to actually come up with something, there has to be a strong incident or philosophy or a thought to ponder about & write. Today at this point of time when I want to write I do not have either of them. So now what? Should I just switch off my notebook? Well I have decided that I have to write something today so that option is out. So I decide to create an ambiance, I pull a comfy chair close to the window of my room which overlooks the picturesque by lanes of Copenhagen city with trees, beautiful houses, little snow.  It looks beautiful just to sit by there, gaze into the scenery & get immersed into deep thoughts. So I am hopeful that I will be inspired to pen down something…since I have decided to write today.

It’s been around ten minutes now… I have looked at all the people walking by the street, gazed into the beautiful sky, a lady in the opposite window putting up a meal & still no inspiring thought to write about. I decide to make myself a bit more comfortable by cozying up to another window, close to the heater, a different scenery which has a main street now along with the by lanes, beautiful houses and the little snow. I also have a stimulant, my piping hot big cup of ‘kadak chai’. At least now I should get some thoughts and write something…that’s what I have decided for today.

I start my forced thinking process, should I write about the last one year of my life where in I took the most important decision of my life & got married? my life post marriage, a new phase where I am learning & doing things which I had never done before the most important being quitting my job & attempting to start afresh my career in still under the spell of recession Europe/Denmark, discovering my love for a new art form Tanjore Painting, probably want to learn more of it when I am back and who knows may be take it up professionally or the art of cooking which I don’t love but I still explore & experiment. I am already making my mom proud with my culinary skills and also with my mehman nawazi..actually am doing a lot of it in Copenhagen. May be I should write about my experiences of living in one of the best cities in the world or my first snow experience with temperatures plunging into minus something and me surviving in these conditions. I was a girl who would wear a sweater in Mumbai winters & here I am in Copenhagen in one of the harshest winters thankfully still alive. I think I should skip this semi autobiography and probably think of something else. But I should write that’s my target for today & I don’t give up till my task is complete.

I decide to give my not yet started thinking process a tiny break. Let me read the news, maybe it’ll give me my topic to write on…so all d web pages of TOI, ET, The Copenhagen Post, Newyork Times are all open. I am browsing across each page & today when I am reading these pages my motive is different. I am looking for that one thought which will prompt me to write something. The papers all have is the Egypt protest, Raja being caught…will that affect the Indian praja…,the sensex going up & down…ufff…I am frustrated now. Where is my ‘the thought’ which will prompt me to write.

Let me relax now & distract my mind…let me facebook for a while. I am sure I will have something to write on. Am browsing through pictures of god know who they are, some videos which claim that they are the best entertainers in the world…& of course reading through some very interesting updates of friends. Some are a take on life, some attending interesting events…the latest fad being telling all via fb where you are & with whom & so on & on…and I have already spent a good amount of time doing this just on the pretext of relaxing myself. Do I have something to write about? I am afraid, NO.

I was so immersed into my notebook that I forgot about the scenic ambience that I was sitting by. I look up and its 4.00pm and dark and the day is already gone. I have spent my entire afternoon trying to think and write something and by the end of it I haven’t written a word. Not a very good way of spending time. Alas I was all set to give up,but on second thoughts I am at my creative best at the night. So maybe I should give it a shot then…Aah.. I already have selected my corner to sit by for that inspiring ambience….So I will definitely write something today!!!

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